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Thursday, June 17
Its been a long Time coming!
Back by necessary demands. Its been a while since I've communicated with you all on a deep level. A lot has happened since I've been away, a lot of issues I have been dealing with on my own, that has come back from my past to haunt me. However, I am dealing. I am finding myself becoming broken, and humbled in many ways. Before, I ran from truth, I mean we all know that truth hurts, but its only so far we can run, and even then we cannot run from the presence of God, ever. So I am slowly finding my way back. Thank goodness for my Release Point.
Monday, October 19
Higher Grounds
Why did I enjoy the feeling of being so high?
Heart bouncing like hydrolics
I was far from being hyper
Hydrated in the flesh
Not exactly what the spirit would decipher.
See I was missing out on the growth, instead, Im pacing back and forth wanting more.
highly intelligent, yet not up to par.
Looking back wishing I was above the influence, like that commercial be telling you
naw man, I was doing things I aint normally do.
And saying things I dont normally say, They call it tweeking. I call it fading away.
Fading away from the reality of things,
destroying my hopes and my dreams, and looking all back, it only seems, I did anything to be on that team.
That team had me missing classes, and failing testes
and wasting time, I didnt have. All to get a little low, all to be a lotta slow,
Why? Why didnt I resist the temptation that was steady embracing my desires? But
thoughts was racing, and I was still chasing this blunt.
But to be blunt with you, I never spent a dime.
it's funny how we find
others who are already there, and they don't care
They provide the supply and share,
because you see, to them its only weed, and they're more than happy, because you're keeping them company. That was me, the free-be.
Just to get high.
See I thought it was cool, to walk into the school-building,
blasted
blunted
Zooted
Pooted
Gampt
Nice
Thrashed
slapped
flamed
You know cuz these were our code names
It wasn't til I realized that I was tired of being high,
tired of walking by
others smelling like I just landed in Jamaica,
going on trips to the gas station looking for joint paper.
Using fabreeze and victoria secrete to hide the reaking,
coming in the dorm room tip-toeing and sneaking. Man I can believe it
grades drop, forget it.
There was no way out. I was addicted.
Or was I?
But along with that Life style came other baggage.
I was so far from God,
stuck in sin, I couldnt win, for loosing.
I was abusing, and misusing the name of the most high, instead of claiming him,
I was the one high.
I gain many friends that loved sin.
was never convicted, just did it again and again.
But me? My heart was broken once I heard what Christ has spoken, to me
I was guilty.
See God had mercy on me, he wanted my attention numberously.
I am free, yes Im free.
My savior has set me free.
No more, no more.
No more shame and guilt. I hide in the tower of refuge he has built.
Im no longer high in the flesh, but now I stand on a much higher ground.
Oh how I love that sound.
High on his love, for He is my drug.
And I will forever speak of his grace.
And now I dwell with the most high in the secret place.
Heart bouncing like hydrolics
I was far from being hyper
Hydrated in the flesh
Not exactly what the spirit would decipher.
See I was missing out on the growth, instead, Im pacing back and forth wanting more.
highly intelligent, yet not up to par.
Looking back wishing I was above the influence, like that commercial be telling you
naw man, I was doing things I aint normally do.
And saying things I dont normally say, They call it tweeking. I call it fading away.
Fading away from the reality of things,
destroying my hopes and my dreams, and looking all back, it only seems, I did anything to be on that team.
That team had me missing classes, and failing testes
and wasting time, I didnt have. All to get a little low, all to be a lotta slow,
Why? Why didnt I resist the temptation that was steady embracing my desires? But
thoughts was racing, and I was still chasing this blunt.
But to be blunt with you, I never spent a dime.
it's funny how we find
others who are already there, and they don't care
They provide the supply and share,
because you see, to them its only weed, and they're more than happy, because you're keeping them company. That was me, the free-be.
Just to get high.
See I thought it was cool, to walk into the school-building,
blasted
blunted
Zooted
Pooted
Gampt
Nice
Thrashed
slapped
flamed
You know cuz these were our code names
It wasn't til I realized that I was tired of being high,
tired of walking by
others smelling like I just landed in Jamaica,
going on trips to the gas station looking for joint paper.
Using fabreeze and victoria secrete to hide the reaking,
coming in the dorm room tip-toeing and sneaking. Man I can believe it
grades drop, forget it.
There was no way out. I was addicted.
Or was I?
But along with that Life style came other baggage.
I was so far from God,
stuck in sin, I couldnt win, for loosing.
I was abusing, and misusing the name of the most high, instead of claiming him,
I was the one high.
I gain many friends that loved sin.
was never convicted, just did it again and again.
But me? My heart was broken once I heard what Christ has spoken, to me
I was guilty.
See God had mercy on me, he wanted my attention numberously.
I am free, yes Im free.
My savior has set me free.
No more, no more.
No more shame and guilt. I hide in the tower of refuge he has built.
Im no longer high in the flesh, but now I stand on a much higher ground.
Oh how I love that sound.
High on his love, for He is my drug.
And I will forever speak of his grace.
And now I dwell with the most high in the secret place.
Sunday, October 11
Communication
The questions pops in my head how important is communication in marriage?
If it is key to building a strong marriage, then it is very difficult for this to happen. You would think both parties would want to be on the same page with things. But why does it seem that someone is always not cooperating? It takes time, for some folks who been married for the majority of there lives, they still dont have it all together. And for me and my husband, it seems we dont have it at all.
I am taking a marriage class at my church. And today the topic was on comunication. I thought it was very interesting. The previous topics were on submission and headship. Wives are to submit and husbands are to be the head of the house. I find it very difficult to grasp a clearer meaning of the word submit. I want to get it right and understand it so that I can practice it, but it just isnt clear cut to me. Some say it means to follow, to be the help meat, to work side by side with him. But the connotation of the word is negative of course. It can mean to some to obey, to keep quiet. But I don't think thats what it means. I am willing to submit if he is willing to lead the way. I want to be less independant if he will step up. I was convicted of this while sitting in class. My thoughts were, Lord, change me. I want to submit.
Back to communication. I believe we need better communication, not just in conflict, but at all times, esp to avoid conflict, because we all know that bad/no communication can lead to conflict. I want to be able to read him and understand him before I want understanding. I want to be selfless, so that I can listen to him and his needs. I want to communicate the things that I know he would enjoy, like dinner when he gets home, or a good action movie every now and then, or saving money. Those things can communicate to him that I care. I want better communication.
This class has brought me to tears because I realize how messed up I am as a wife and how I need to get it together. Its easy to see the fault in him, but the more I read passages in the Bible on Wives submitting, the more I am guilty of not. I think this is for me. So I am definatly challenged by this.
If it is key to building a strong marriage, then it is very difficult for this to happen. You would think both parties would want to be on the same page with things. But why does it seem that someone is always not cooperating? It takes time, for some folks who been married for the majority of there lives, they still dont have it all together. And for me and my husband, it seems we dont have it at all.
I am taking a marriage class at my church. And today the topic was on comunication. I thought it was very interesting. The previous topics were on submission and headship. Wives are to submit and husbands are to be the head of the house. I find it very difficult to grasp a clearer meaning of the word submit. I want to get it right and understand it so that I can practice it, but it just isnt clear cut to me. Some say it means to follow, to be the help meat, to work side by side with him. But the connotation of the word is negative of course. It can mean to some to obey, to keep quiet. But I don't think thats what it means. I am willing to submit if he is willing to lead the way. I want to be less independant if he will step up. I was convicted of this while sitting in class. My thoughts were, Lord, change me. I want to submit.
Back to communication. I believe we need better communication, not just in conflict, but at all times, esp to avoid conflict, because we all know that bad/no communication can lead to conflict. I want to be able to read him and understand him before I want understanding. I want to be selfless, so that I can listen to him and his needs. I want to communicate the things that I know he would enjoy, like dinner when he gets home, or a good action movie every now and then, or saving money. Those things can communicate to him that I care. I want better communication.
This class has brought me to tears because I realize how messed up I am as a wife and how I need to get it together. Its easy to see the fault in him, but the more I read passages in the Bible on Wives submitting, the more I am guilty of not. I think this is for me. So I am definatly challenged by this.
Saturday, October 10
One Body
I am a member of Lighthouse Christian fellowship. I have been going there for years now. It is very different from the tradtional churches, however, this is how Churches get started. This Church is planted in East Garfield park in Chicago and has two locations of where we meet. Of course we meet in the homes of our family, which I believe is a great way to build a strong body because it makes it more personal.
I love our Church. There is so much I like about it. It is comfortable and flexible. We dont have to be flashy or compete with fashion. Another thing is that it is small so the fellowship is great. The teaching is always a blessing because it is led by discussions and requests. Instead of a pastor preaching down at us, we sit in a circle and discuss the Bible and learn together, and I know that I learned so much and is continually being challenged more and more in my walk with Christ. It is so different than the tradition church I grew up in.
I also love my family. We not only spend time together at church, but throughout the week as well. and everything we do, we meet in someones home. I am so greatful for my church fam and the leaders.
I love our Church. There is so much I like about it. It is comfortable and flexible. We dont have to be flashy or compete with fashion. Another thing is that it is small so the fellowship is great. The teaching is always a blessing because it is led by discussions and requests. Instead of a pastor preaching down at us, we sit in a circle and discuss the Bible and learn together, and I know that I learned so much and is continually being challenged more and more in my walk with Christ. It is so different than the tradition church I grew up in.
I also love my family. We not only spend time together at church, but throughout the week as well. and everything we do, we meet in someones home. I am so greatful for my church fam and the leaders.
Tuesday, October 6
One Love
Some people trip off the thought of marriage. For them it's "first comes love then a baby carriage." I had a dude the other day say to me, "I know you be cheatin". This world is messed up cuz that's what they thinkin. See I believe that one plus one equals one. Like the father, the Spirit, and the Son. He is me and I am he. No one can come between this love. I wanna show the world that this is from above. It's real and forever, til death do we part, thru sickness and health, we can never be apart. real talk, this generation dont have an example of real love to begin, they don't know that Christ came to die for our sins, so they wont understand this love thats within. The love that helps me push thru any fight, the love that makes me wanna be a better wife, and the love that makes me wanna submit. Cuase Im im his wife and he my husband.
Relationships
When it comes to sharing the Gospel, how important is it to building relationships before sharing? Some say build a relationship before you invite them to church or before you share. But is that even right? I know that as a Christian I should live in such a way that my lifestyle will be ministry for those to see. But instead of beating around the bush, why not get straight to the point and share Christ. Jesus did it, but he also build relationships as he went along.
So help me understand this a bit better. Give me a little insight as to how I should go about this, cuz I wanna share Christ with the world and invite them to church.
So help me understand this a bit better. Give me a little insight as to how I should go about this, cuz I wanna share Christ with the world and invite them to church.
Monday, October 5
Romans
I read about how the Romans' lifestyles were when Paul addressed the Church with the GOOD NEWS. These people just didn't care. They heard the good News that Paul shared with them, but the Bible said they ignored it and fell into deep sin. These people had NO EXCUSE! They knew the truth, but they still chose to behave the way they did, and they encouraged others to do the same.
My observations are that things are still the same with people today. They have no bounderies of living. Everything is an acception to them. Lets take Homosexuality for example. In our society today, this is becoming bigger than its ever been. I see more same sex relationships than heterosexual relationships. It's like what is normal now? I question that, and if I didnt know the truth I would be confused.
In Romans chapter 1, Paul mentions a lot on homosexuality. There are 2 important messages that needs to be said on Homosexuality.
1) Is for our society: which have lost any meaningful idea of sin, righteousness, holiness and truth. The message is that all lifestyles are NOT acceptable. Some sins such as alcoholism, materialism, and Homosexuality, are wrong, its a sin.
2) Is for the Church (all Christians).What they need to understand is that while homosexuality is a sin, it is not the unforgivable sin. God loves homos just as much as he loves other sinners. Jesus' death on the Cross paid for homos sins just as it paid for the sins of lust, greed, sexual immorality, gossip, jeaolousy ect. The Church is a HOSPITAL for SINNERS, not a SHOWCASE for SAINTS.
So my thoughts on this is that time has changed, but cats still doing the same thing, its just getting worst. If we know people like that, dont be judgmental, be prayerful, and be like Paul... Spit the GOOD NEWS AT'EM!!!
My observations are that things are still the same with people today. They have no bounderies of living. Everything is an acception to them. Lets take Homosexuality for example. In our society today, this is becoming bigger than its ever been. I see more same sex relationships than heterosexual relationships. It's like what is normal now? I question that, and if I didnt know the truth I would be confused.
In Romans chapter 1, Paul mentions a lot on homosexuality. There are 2 important messages that needs to be said on Homosexuality.
1) Is for our society: which have lost any meaningful idea of sin, righteousness, holiness and truth. The message is that all lifestyles are NOT acceptable. Some sins such as alcoholism, materialism, and Homosexuality, are wrong, its a sin.
2) Is for the Church (all Christians).What they need to understand is that while homosexuality is a sin, it is not the unforgivable sin. God loves homos just as much as he loves other sinners. Jesus' death on the Cross paid for homos sins just as it paid for the sins of lust, greed, sexual immorality, gossip, jeaolousy ect. The Church is a HOSPITAL for SINNERS, not a SHOWCASE for SAINTS.
So my thoughts on this is that time has changed, but cats still doing the same thing, its just getting worst. If we know people like that, dont be judgmental, be prayerful, and be like Paul... Spit the GOOD NEWS AT'EM!!!
What's going on...
It is a bit early in the a.m. I wasn't able to sleep right away. So many things are on my mind right now, hopefully I can get it out. Recently I was asked to perform at my ministry's Benefit in late october. The theme is on Hope and I am excited to have the opportunity to share my eternal hope.
I have been praying for words to say. I believe that this is a tool that God has blessed me with to share the Gospel to unsaved cats in my path. Now in case you haven't realized, this Benefit is kinda a big deal, and people from everywhere will be here. So I want the Holy Spirit to lead me in what should be said. I dont want to come short on his glory and honor. So please keep me in prayer for the next few weeks as I spend time in prayer, brainstorming, writing and performing.
God is an awesome God.
This event will take place on October 30th.
Peace for now!
I have been praying for words to say. I believe that this is a tool that God has blessed me with to share the Gospel to unsaved cats in my path. Now in case you haven't realized, this Benefit is kinda a big deal, and people from everywhere will be here. So I want the Holy Spirit to lead me in what should be said. I dont want to come short on his glory and honor. So please keep me in prayer for the next few weeks as I spend time in prayer, brainstorming, writing and performing.
God is an awesome God.
This event will take place on October 30th.
Peace for now!
Saturday, October 3
A Heart for Prayer
Recently I read a book called The Power of a Praying Wife. This book has allowed me to think about my prayer life and how much I pray for my husband. I am pleased to say I knew very little on prayer for my husband. I was just in the rthyme of praying for his safety, needs, and his journey with the Lord. But I grew to understand that those areas are Just the surface of what God really wants. I learned that detail is important when it comes to prayer and there are many areas to be covered.
I strongly believe that there is power in prayer. Prayer with faith moves mountains. But prayer without faith means nothing.
Another book I've started reading is called Adventurous Prayer, and it has also convicted me of praying too little or not enough. When the Bible commanded us to Pray with out ceasing, it meant just that. Pray on all occasions, it means just that. I have learned to pray as I go. On the run. There are so many things that needs prayer, how can we stop?
I am challenged to build a stronger prayer life to stay in constant communion with my Father God.
I strongly believe that there is power in prayer. Prayer with faith moves mountains. But prayer without faith means nothing.
Another book I've started reading is called Adventurous Prayer, and it has also convicted me of praying too little or not enough. When the Bible commanded us to Pray with out ceasing, it meant just that. Pray on all occasions, it means just that. I have learned to pray as I go. On the run. There are so many things that needs prayer, how can we stop?
I am challenged to build a stronger prayer life to stay in constant communion with my Father God.
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