Holy Spirit Lead Us!!!

In case you all didn't know, I lead a Bible Study on Mondays with 5th and 6th grade girls. Now let me say that all these girls are known to be direspectful, careless, and full of attitude most of the time. Yes! I was warned about them. But see, I'm the type who likes the challenge. I prayed tht God would guide us through this learning experience. I also prayed for patience and understanding. During my waiting period, God sent me a helper named Kodi. I was in need of help, Lord knew that. Someone who could see change in these girls lives and someone who wanted them to know God just as much as I wanted it. God knew. Things are going great, today was our third week of Bible Study, and it gets better and better. Me and Kodi are always on the same page with things. She bring lots of things to the table and we all learn together. The girls ask lots of questions, I'm talking good questions. They seem to be learning alot. We are focusing on the fruites of the Spirit in Galatians 5:22. Our aim is on LOVE right now. They kinda make me wanna go straight into Salvation. I feel like some are ready. This girl named Lanier is awesome in my eyes. The first day, I asked the girls to write on an Index card if they were a Christian or not, and how do they know. Well she never heard of Jesus and didnt know what a Christian was. So I thought BINGO!!! This is an opportunity for me right here. So I just been showing her the love of Christ since, she has also been very interested in God and asking questions. I feel that she is searching for love, and wants to trust in God. My heart melts for her. But other than that, everything else is great as well. God is using me and Kodi to reach these girls and I am blessed to be apart of their lives... Oh and we haven't delt with a single attitude. Thank ya Jesus.

Peace for now.

Underground Thoughts

Undergrough Thoughts is what I call Spoken Word/Open Mic night at my house. I got the Undergroung idea from the fact that I live in the basement. This event is to reachout to the high schoolers in my community by allowing them to be creative in their thinkink as well as to hear the Gospel and be in fellowship with believers their own age so that they can generate questions. This can also help them network.

Our first Underground took was on Friday. I thought it went great. Lots of teenagers shared what they were going thru using their writing and thinking skills on a different level. I had a few poets come in as well to set it off. There was a variety of talents that night which was a good thing. I was blessed to see what God has started in my own home.

The majority of high schoolers consisted of the youth at my Church. Our goal is to get them to bring their friends so we can grow and reach unbelievers each month. We also would like to have different viewpoints of youth's writings even if its not Godly. I am down with hearing it, we wont turn our shoulder or judge. We trust that God is gonna do His thing no matter what.

I am thankful that I can use what God has given me to bless Him as well as others. We def want to see growth.

Who I am now, hates Who I been

My head was full of lies, thoughts and confusions,
praying to God to wake me up, Lord is this an illusion?"
Been blinded by the world's view, I thought I lost my vision.
Temptations at the door, how do I make a decision?
Knock and the door will be open,
is this how it is? Man, you gotta be jokin'.
I'm in pain from situations, and silence has spoken.
I'm down on my knees, I call it humility.
I been on my feet for so long, that was the pride in me.
Now I'm saying, Father, search me, and find that I'm not at my best.
So many times I have failed, when I was put to the test.
Never thought that I hurt you, or even denied you.
When it seems prayers not answered, whats a sinner to do?
I wanna trust that you're here, right by my side.
I wish I was with you, when you took the Cross and you died.
I could have been somewhere, smoking weed and drinkin',
lustin' after your creation, thru deeds and thinkin.
See I might be floating, but I can't stand the thought of sinking.
I need to believe you are Lord, even when I'm tipsy and reaking.
No one understands me, your Word says you know every thought.
Before I sit and lay down,
Why can't you direct my walk?
I feel a bit like Paul, in Romans with sin,
I wanna do right, but wrong happens again and again.
At Sundays at Church, there's a battle within,
because last friday, I was out mixing o.j. and Gin
It's a spiritual Roller Coaster, and Im sick to my Spirit,
Times up, games over, its time for change and I feel it.
Broken heart, war wounds, Lord, I need some healing.
You say You will take me as I am, but I need some deliverance.
Time to clean it up, Lord Im down for obedience.
You're the perfect one, the Sovereign God you are.
Me? My deeds are filty rags, I'll never be at par.
That tells me I need you, and that's the best start.
Man looks at the outter appearance, I know you look at the heart.
Search me Father. For Your love seems so far.